Feeling like...

You know what I feel like right now? 

A fish. 

In a bowl. 

With no water. 

Just flapping about. 

With a lot of people looking at the bowl, wishing for water. 

While looking at me flapping about.  

I just wish someone would or could pour a pitcher of water on me.

slumpy

slumpy. slump slump slump.
that's what i'm in right now. that's a word that sounds just like it feels. especially when you say it a lot. in your head.

i need to get my ass kicked into gear and get out of this. i just don't feel like taking care of myself right now - that's never a good thing. there's a lot of stuff swirling and i think i'm just letting it all get to me too much.
i should go to yoga tonight, but i probably won't. i should take the weekend and have a knock-down, scrub-out fight with my apartment, but i probably wont. i should go to the hot sauce festival and see the tiny tin hearts and let their twinkliness warm me up, but i probably won't.

i'm not very good at being like this. someone shake me. please.

feeling

like crap. i've had nothing but sugar and fruit all day.

can i throw up and start all over again?

feeling

like crap. i've ingested nothing but sugar today. i hate hallmark holidays that require desserts.

i'm salty. or in need of salt. i don't know which.