a thought popped into my head that might just get me on-track again with the eating well and exercising in a more consistent manner:
throw out all the clothes that are too big for you that have been sitting in your closet "just in case" you gained the weight back AND just to make it look like you have more clothes than you do.
so i did. i don't have a lot of clothes. i didn't to begin with and i REALLY don't now.